Saturday, May 31, 2008

Friday, June 13

On Friday June 13 at 3:30 pm, I start a new chapter in my life.

This will be the last day of work for me...I submitted my resignation.

Some people are happy for me and others think I've lost my mind but it was my choice. Some women can "do it all" and find a balance between motherhood and having a career. But I think those women don't have 3 children and they're in a career that they enjoy, they feel fulfilled and good about what they do.

My position was just a job and not a career. I didn't feel fulfilled and Monday - Friday I felt the horrible sick feeling of knowing I have to drag myself into that office. My supervisor is a very negative and critical person who strives to micro-manage her staff. You never hear positive feedback, it's all negative and at times humiliating. You work many weekends and long hours. Plus when you're not at work you worry about what the next day will bring. It's very stressful.

I don't want to do it anymore. Money is important but it's not everything. For my own sanity and happiness, I had to resign. I'm not happy and my job was not going to get better, in fact it would be getting worse. Yesterday due to poor sales and the economy, they've started the cutbacks and several people in management and the office were let go.

I'm scared and nervous about my decision but in my heart I know I made the best decision for my family and my happiness. It was time to move on. I hope my friends and family understand and will support me in my decision. It's done now and I can't reverse it. My employer made that very clear to me that once you do it, it's no going back.

If I want to work full-time again, I will get another job. I am looking to find a small part-time job to be able to get out and have some extra money. You only have one chance when your kids are little and once it's gone, it's gone. I've never been able to do this as I've been working since I was barely 16 years old and I've been working full-time since I was 18 years old. I never went to college...I was always working as I had no choice. I would have liked to have become a pharamacist or a nurse.

At one point in my life when Will was a baby I was working a full-time job and two part-time jobs. It's been hard at times missing so much of Will's life when he was young but I had no choice but to do it. You can't turn back the clock but I can change my future.

Life goes on and a new chapter begins.


lauren said...

I am so proud of you. I know that this was hard, but I also know that you will never regret it. Kudos Ms. Jensen for finally following your heart! Maybe now you can become a Scrapbook sales person ;)

~K8 said...

You did the right thing these years with children go by too fast and no job is worth sacrificing Mommy time!

As a Mother of 5 grown children believe me when I say the day will come when even the most hectic of times you will miss.

Peace, out.